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16 November 2009 @ 03:30 am
A friend I just made recently made me remember the days back in secondary school. I find that as life brings me to a new chapter I sometimes slowly forget the old ones. Blame it on my poor memory. I thought back to my mentality during that time and find myself so childish, for all the things I thought mattered then didn't matter much to me now. And the person I've become has been different from the one i was back then. But some of me hasn't changed and I'm happy for that. I would like to say i grew wiser as i grew taller but sometimes knowing more about this world has just hardened me a little.
To the past chapters, I cherish it and it will remain dearly in my heart. Sometimes it may fade, but isn't that what pictures and friends are for to remind you of those times. Friends out there, I just want to let you know, I wanna keep you for a lifetime so don't stray too far from me k!
To the new chapter that I have embarked on, I hope that you will help me grow. I feel that I have lots to learn still. I'm thankful for new friends that made this place somewhere at least I feel at home.
 
 
Current Location: Canada, Montreal
Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: So far away - Goo goo dolls
 
 
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19 October 2009 @ 11:11 pm

Life has been really hectic lately. It's hard to even find time to think about stuff. It's either I'm rushing for one event to another or cramming in information for midterms. I find it hard sometimes to keep in contact with people back home, hard to have some alone time to just evaluate what has been going on, hard sometimes to remember what is the purpose of everything that I am doing. Univeristy is harder than I think. Whoever told you that it was easier than A levels is bullshitting. Consistency is something I have lost in JC and now I am trying to get it back. But having a poor start is not doing any good and I am left here to catch up as fast as I can. 
In the midst of midterms. I hate it but its a really good wake up call to remind myself that I can't do the things I'm doing. Midterm one just passed and a week later is midterms 2, soon it'll be finals. Exams after exams, it just never really ends. Need a new study strategy. So here it is CONSISTENCY is key. I just calculated and realised that I need 7 hours a day or studying outside of class. That's not a lot I would say as long I get into it. 

Last weekend was pretty fun. But I don't know why I was so freaking exhausted. Slept really late on friday night so woke up late on saturday morning. Ate with Sharon, Jane, Yisheng and Jacques for crepes in the caf, but sharon and I realised that we had to rush to the hospital for volunteering. We reached there on time thankfully. The hospital is paritally close on saturdays but some departments are open. We went to a few levels but there was no one there. Finally we came to the transition care unit and found some patients there. Our job was to talk to the patients and teach them crafts if they were interested. First we met this old lady, but she only spoke french, which both of us can't fully understand. I was trying really hard to listen but all I understood was 'mal' that she felt bad. Then we were asked to walk this old man around, so that he can get some exercise. But all he was allowed to do was to walk around that ward, they had a magnetic band that prevents the door from opening. He's an italian man and only spoke italian, so that was even harder to communicate. Only 1 nurse could understand him. I brought him to the tv room after he had some juice and for no reason he started to hit the tele, so I brought him back to his room. I think he couldn't understand the news from the tele as it was all in English and got frustrated. I went to join sharon after that and talked to this nice old lady. She was so adorable. She told us about her son, her brother and her husband. Her husband died a year ago on the exact same day that Singapore was celebrating her birthday. I still remembered that day, we were all at danielle's house "studying" and eating ben and jerry's. A day full of fun and laughter. I guess life is like that, while some is rejoicing, others are grieving. She talked about how her son is teaching in Korea, and can only come back once in a while and how he would call once in a while. That just made me think of my parents, that I should call them more often. She also mentioned she had a cat that passed away recently, and how much so loved that cat.. I guess as one grows older, death has become part and parcel. I really admire how she remains so cheerful while talking about it. Since she is in transition care unit, means she is waiting to be trasferred somewhere. And guess what? She is being transferred to the same hospital that her husband died in. She didn't show much, but I could sense her cheer dying out a little. It's gonna be tough to live in the same place that has memories of the last moments with her husband. But I believe she is a strong woman and a cheerful one too. I am so looking forward to talking to her again. 

After that I went to a Deepa-Raya celebration event where the MASSA ( M'sia S'pore association) cooked briyani rice and 4 different types of chicken. YUM! We had to dance to Jaiho to earn our food though. After that we went to a lantern festival exhibition at Pie-IX. It was pretty cool, too bad I didn't bring my camera and was freezing as I just wore a sweater. Thankfully, I had lots of donated items that kept me warm through the night, Feel like a hobo. Came back to new rez to find my friends studying. I was too exhausted to even study and fell asleep on the bed. My earlier resolution to not sleep in other people's room is once again violated. I can't believe I slept through the whole night and not even realising they removed my shoes.

OMG my rez just had a blackout. Pretty eerie. I;m quite thankful for having a roommate at this point in time, though she's already fast asleep.

 
 
Current Location: Canada, Montreal
Current Mood: determined
Current Music: Chingster - Nigahiga
 
 
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29 September 2009 @ 12:41 am
Took a family portrait during the week in Edmonton. The photographer took some of our pictures and posted on her blog. I'm pretty moved by the things she said. It makes me miss my family quite a bit.

The See Family ~ Edmonton Family Photographer

The See family came out for family photo session at Rundle Park in Edmonton a little while ago. They are a super nice family, with stunningly beautiful daughters! I felt privledged that they had selected me to capture their family as they approach other phases in their lives. Andrew told me that he wanted family photos with his daughters before they became older and have families of their own. I really thought it was quite sweet.

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It really made me think about it though. When kids are little with pig tails, wiggly teeth and Dora (or whoever is fun at the moment) shoes, we are all in a hurry to document them. To make sure we remember every minute of their young lives. But how often do you see professional portraits of families with older children, teeangers, young adults. I really think it's a little sad.

When I was a teenager, and before I owned any professional photography gear, I remember telling my mom that we should have family photos taken with her, my sister Maggie and I. We always thought it was a great idea, but we always seemed to put it off and it never happened.

And now, just like Andrew was trying to prevent with his family, we are all grown and have families of our own. Our moment past quickly and we missed out on having our photos taken. So even if your kids are gangly teenagers and aren't keen to go to movies with you or hold your hand when they are crossing the street, make the time to document this time in their lives. It passes all too quickly.

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Saw this on a blog link from Jane. It's a good reminder not to rest on your laurels. self pity your sorry ass and not to take the easy way out.

Love him or hate him, he sure hits the nail on the head with this! Bill Gates recently gave a speech at a High School about 11 things they did not and will not learn in school. He talks about how feel-good, politically correct teachings created a generation of kids with no concept of reality and how this concept set them up for failure in the real world.

Rule 1: Life is not fair – get used to it!

Rule 2 : The world won’t care about your self-esteem. The world will expect you to accomplish something BEFORE you feel good about yourself.

Rule 3 : You will NOT make $60,000 a year right out of high school. You won’t be a vice-president with a car phone until you earn both.

Rule 4 : If you think your teacher is tough, wait till you get a boss.

Rule 5 : Flipping burgers is not beneath your dignity. Your Grandparents had a different word for burger flipping: they called it opportunity.

Rule 6: If you mess up, it’s not your parents’ fault, so don’t whine about your mistakes, learn from them.

Rule 7: Before you were born, your parents weren’t as boring as they are now They got that way from paying your bills, cleaning your clothes and listening to you talk about how cool you thought you were. So before you save the rain forest from the parasites of your parent’s generation, try delousing the closet in your own room.

Rule 8: Your school may have done away with winners and losers, but life HAS NOT. In some schools, they have abolished failing grades and they’ll give you as MANY TIMES as you want to get the right answer. This doesn’t bear the slightest resemblance to ANYTHING in real life. (this is no true for Singapore, they make you fail )

Rule 9: Life is not divided into semesters. You don’t get summers off and very few employers are interested in helping you FIND YOURSELF. Do that on your own time.

Rule 10: Television is NOT real life. In real life people actually have to leave the coffee shop and go to jobs.

Rule 11: Be nice to nerds. Chances are you’ll end up working for one.

If you can read this – Thank a teacher.



Anyway I watched the first episode of Glee today. One of those inspiring shows to chase your passion no matter what the obstacles.
Here's one of the songs that i like.


I realise i have to keep having these reminders here in uni to keep me from falling, to remember what i came here for, that I have to keep going even though its not easy. Not to take the easy road.
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Current Location: montreal
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Current Music: Don't stop believing - Glee soundtrack
 
 
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26 September 2009 @ 04:51 pm
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I'm so tired from studying. I came online to do some webwork and here's what i came across...



cute eh!?

HEre's another! Reminds me of how i used to play with fluffy and squishy!

 

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Current Location: Canada, Montreal
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: Who let the dogs out!
 
 
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22 September 2009 @ 10:05 pm
School is getting better for me after doing some serious organising and adapting and most importantly studying.
Mondays and fridays are free morning days as I get to sleep in late. But I'm a good student so I'll wake up early to study SOMETIMES!
Tue is early morning late night, from 8:30am to 8:30pm but oh well I have a huge break in between.
Wednesdays are hectic days as I have 3 consecutive lessons, a 3 hr lab and 2 l hr lectures. Furthermore, I have to walk up the mountain to steward bio and then rush down all the way for chemistry. But once its over, I'm done for the day, unless I want to go for chem tutorial, which is optional means you dont have to go!!!
After wednesday, it is relax all the way!!! Cuz thurs is french in the morning at 8:30 (which sucks especially in the brutal winter) but by 11:30 I'm done done done!!! And fridays is super relax as I have the same time table as monday! Here comes the awesome weekend!!!

I'm gonna take up yoga class on monday just to flex a bit. Probably try to hit the gym. And go sign up for some dance classes. Speaking of which I went for a dance audition for contemporary dance. It was stressful but really fun. I didn't have any background in contemp or jazz so it was a little hard. But the choreography was pretty cool. Supposed to go for an acapella audition but chickened out last min!!! Crépes from cora's were too tempting.

Went shopping on friday!! Bought some much needed winter stuff but winter jacket is still a ? Went to tonic at night. Didn go too well for some of my friends :( Well a lesson learned.

Had chicken rice on saturday!!!! Finally some Singaporean food! I miss all my chee cheong fun, charkway tiao, chai teow kui, yu pian mee fen, hor fun, nasi lemak, roti prata, bak chor mee, mee siam, wanton mee, ........ Great to have a bit of Singapore in my tummy! Oh and found an exchange student from concordia that was from st margs!

Sunday went to Snowdon for church, pretty far away! I wonder how am I gonna get up in the morning to go church at 9:30!!! Maybe People's church is a better alternative! Spent the afternoon "studying" and did my laundry (finally!)

I guess from now on things are gonna get a bit routinal. Plus miderms are coming!!! My aim for now is:
1) catch up and be ahead of my work.
2)Join a volunteer club and some activities for exercising the body.
3)Hang out with friends but not excessively.
4)Stop falling asleep in other people's rooms.
5)Do laundry on a regular basis.
6)Have enough free time to catch up on tv shows and movies (after doing no.1)
7)Try practising my french on my friends ( Bon! Je suis travailleuse!)
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Current Location: Montreal
Current Mood: content
Current Music: Larkin step - Ling86
 
 
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13 September 2009 @ 04:20 pm

Weekends is here and time to STUDY??!?!
Well, not at all. Been partying a bit for the past few days. But todayI shall get my game on and study. However it is so easy to get distracted and that's why I am here to post something on my blog.
Vane offline msg me to comment on her homework about Ms Ris Low, the person that won Singapore's worst ambassador award.
So for those who hasn't seen it yet, here is the video from youtube.


Well keeping in touch with my singaporean roots, I decided to go view other videos on Singapore and this is what I found.
I'm sure many Singapore probably know about this now though.

OMG. I pity that guy but seriously can't you stand up for yourself?!?!?!?! And the woman... come on have more sophistication in arguing with someone, whacking the balls is so barbaric! VIOLENCE IS NOT THE SOLUTION!
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Current Location: Canada, Montreal
Current Mood: determined
Current Music: I live in Singapura - Hossan Leong
 
 
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01 September 2009 @ 12:36 pm


Wow its been a week in Mcgill and I would say it pretty much rocks so far.
So much stuff to update but here's prelude.
Drinking partying cooking hunting climbing shouting.....
I know now why mcgill is rated playboy's top 10 party school. It lives up to its reputation and is proud of it.
"More beer more beer more beer more beer" a cheer that radiates all through the campus. Beer bottles always on the sidewalks of new rez (my residence). Puke and beer all spilled in the elevator is a common phenomenon every night. Drunk people shouting loudly or needing to pee badly. Some people I met, I hardly saw them sober. Chugging beer. Beer card games.Clubs there are cool but seriously the hanky panky that goes on there just makes you want to shout "get a room!" Pot smelling walkway on my level. Cigaretter buds strewn all over the front entrance. People smoking shisha right outside the rez., "Fire" in Gardner hall from cooking pancakes at night.  People falling down the stairs after smoking pot, also in Gardner hall.
Partying aside, I got to meet lots of people. Well hopefully they all remember me when they are sober! haha. But I met some pretty cool people too from science frosh and fish frosh and some just randomly crashing into their room to sleep. Even met my primary school mate!

Looking back at this past week, I thought I was going to dread it at first but now I just don't want school to start!

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Current Location: Canada, Montreal
Current Mood: excited
Current Music: Fire burning - Sean Kingston
 
 
dotsandashes
27 July 2009 @ 02:32 pm
NDP  

I'm so in the NDP mood right now. Went to watch ndp rehearsals on Sat, (the full dress). And I'm in love with the NDP theme song this year, "What do you see". Who cares wht other people say about it being not catchy (like my mom!) Well, maybe cuz its more my generation kind of vibe. Well, what do you want? Another lousy song like last year that has no tune and was totally ripped from another composer? Or a song that is different from the rest?

So here it is.... See the moon and the stars

NDP '09 Theme Song - What do you see? (English)
Composition & Lyrics by Electrico

Verse 1: There’s a jewel on the ocean,
a gem upon the sea
Where the future is an open book
A land of destiny
We could set our sights into the wind and sail the seven seas
or climb the highest mountain top as long as we believe
What do you see? What do you see?

Chorus: See the moon and the stars, look how far we have come
Look around at our faces, they shine brightly in the sun
With our hopes and dreams, imagine what tomorrow it may bring
What do you see? What do you see?

Verse 2: Now the time has come to reach out,
To open up to see
That we stand together in this land
Cos we are family
As thoughts of reaching to the sky are carried on a dream
With hearts and minds united, our dreams we will achieve
What do you see? What do you see?

Chorus 2: See the moon and the stars, look how far we have come
Look around at our faces, they shine brightly in the sun
With our hopes and dreams, imagine what tomorrow it may bring
What do you see…

Bridge: What do you see when life makes you take on a mountain
You’ll see that nothing’s gonna stand in your way
Together we can share
The strength of a million
and the courage of a million more

Chorus End: See the moon and the stars, look how far we have come
Look around at our faces, they shine brightly in the sun
With our hopes and dreams, imagine what tomorrow it may bring
Cos the sky’s the only limit when you’re not afraid to dream
What do you see?
What do you see..


And here's another by Mr Brown, Le Kua Si Mi!
Here are some of my favorite past ndp songs

We will get there - Stefanie Sun 2002


Where I belong - Tanya Chua 2001

Together - Evelyn & Dreamz FM 1999

My island home - Kaira Gong 2006




I realised that there are lots of songs about Singapore being my home, you can go anywhere but this is still your home... I think Singapore is really scared of brain drain man, every year must remind the people that Singapore is your home. So to all those leaving (including myself) it serves as a reminder of who we are and where we belong. For some cases, like my cousins, seems like they're pretty much aussies already.


Last but not least, the all time favourite! There was even a cover done by kids in 2004. LOVE THIS SONG! I think I'll cry if I hear it when I'm away.



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Current Location: home
Current Mood: happy
Current Music: What do you see - Electrico
 
 
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25 July 2009 @ 03:46 am
Finally cooled off quite a bit. I thought absence makes your heart grow fonder, but in my case with my dad, it seems to have the opposite effect. Maybe its just the stress of getting everything settled that's making me edgy. Or maybe phone conversations can be quite mininterpreting. You can get your tone all wrong even if you dont mean anything bad. It could be a bad time (like late at night or in the middle of your sleep) that he called. I feel so bad for giving a bad attitude. Its always after the cooling, I feel guilty for being like that, I don't deserve all that he's done for me.

One more thing to add to my resolution
- Be less quick tempered on the phone.
 
 
Current Location: Singapore, Singapore
Current Mood: guilty
Current Music: Daughters - John Mayer
 
 
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21 July 2009 @ 01:24 am

Resolutions


Some horrid habits I want to kick before I head for uni.

1) Stop sleeping late! ( eyebags growing darker and bigger by the day, horrid headaches building up, wasting the next day away... all these banes should keep me from sleeping late I hope!)

2) Stop pulling my hair ( as what my friends would say,., "pull pull pull, later all your hair drop" )

3) Stop being late for any engagements ( its quite bad to have such a reputation, shocked timo that i was actually early!)

4) Stop procrastinating in doing important but boring things ( the laziness of no school is hitting me real hard, just getting my butt up to do some uni stuff or reading through some material can take FOREVER!!!)

5) Stop shopping online. (I'm wasting so much time browsing through the stuff they have on the websites! I could have spent those time to do the things mentioned in point 4.

6) Concentrate on one thing at a time. I feel that I'm trying to do so many things, be so many things.


K so thats the list, hope that when i come back to this post a few months later, that they are really vanished and gone.
 
 
Current Mood: crappy
Current Music: Red - Daniel Merriweather
 
 
dotsandashes
17 July 2009 @ 03:29 am
Flipping through the pages, I see those days once again.

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09 July 2009 @ 02:37 pm


Tueday was such a hilarious day. We were pretty much lost souls.
Took the flyer with the barn ppl. I was so excited about it that I forgot I was scared of heights.Only till i was locked in, with no way of coming out, the sudden realisation hit me. Ok, chill I can do this. I had to keep grabbing the chair or the metal bars to just give me a little sense of security. The view was amazing and after a while I forgot my fears, even felt sad when the ride ended.
After that we went to liang court to eat at this restarant, Sazeriya, an italian-japanese restaurant. But to get there was a hell-of-a-ride. Yin was the driver for the day. She doesn't really know the roads in Singapore as she studies in Australia, so we had the responsiblity of navigating her there. Well, we weren't that good. When yin reaches a junction of a road divider, she'll go " left or right, left or right, LEFT OR RIGHT!!!!" Then we'll make an impulsive decision "LEFT LEFT LEFT!" So we ended up on AYE driving to marina bay and ended up in the heart of the IR construction site. There were banglas all around. We really felt like a fish out of water. We pretended to be the CEO or something since we look so out of place.We ended up in the car park area of the construction quarters, unable to u turn as cars were piling behind us. We had to park in one of the lots till those cars cleared. And followed a taxi out of this strange place.
Finally we got to Saizerya!!! YAY Ghost stories about SMSS were told. And freddie just had to tell us about drag me to hell, which me and yin used getting drinks as an excuse to escape.
Yin drove us back to thomson where now almost all of us stayed nearby!!! (only when we're out of school and many of us are leaving that we get to stay near each other :(:(:(  ) We were at this traffic light waiting for it to turn green and just nice, 855, 163, 52, 410 all passed. Yin went chasing after those buses but only managed to get char's 52. YIn is a brute driver man!!! ahhaha damn brave... i think i will scream my way through if I drove like her. She cut 3 lanes in such a short distance just to get to the u turn zone. OMG.
Next outing, reverse bungee!! SOON!

I hate the ticking of the clock. It just reminds me that each tick brings me closer to the day. But the time spent has been fun. Either hopping around my classes, working out at the gym, meet up with dear friends, driving crazily around marina bay, working at rp. 3 more weeks till I go, I hope it passes SLOWLY.  


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Current Location: home
Current Mood: gloomy
Current Music: I know you want me - Pitbull
 
 
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26 June 2009 @ 02:32 am
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Been wondering why I've been staying up late till the ams lately. I'ts not like I have a urgent project that I have to complete nor any interesting game or things on the net to truly spend my time on. I just wander. Searching for something, just something. Maybe a meaning  to my life right now. It's funny how I anticipated this whole period, of the things I want to do and the feelings I'll get from it. But I am no where near from where I began.  I know the purpose of my life but I'm not living it out, too distracted by the things around. Frustrated by many things of myself which I know I won't be as long as I have my perspective in my purpose. Many bad habits I'm trying to kick, but there doesn't seem to be any progress. I just drift, like a jellyfish going with the flow of the ocean's current.  Whatever comes my way, I'll accept. Too lazy and timid to fight for what I want, that is if I know what I want. I can't seem to put my priorities right. I just do what I feel like doing at the spur of the moment, without thinking too much into them. Life is so mundane right now. Who knew not having school could be worse than being in school. I don't know what's worse, having to sit in boring lectures all day long or doing unproductive things. Despite my reluctance to go overseas, I think I'm actually looking forward to it. Maybe a change in environment is what I need.
 
 
Current Location: home
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: The show - Lenka
 
 
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17 June 2009 @ 11:35 pm


This guy has got really nice voice. Can compete in American Idol! And his name is adam! Go check out his other vids on youtube.

Using his demo to learn wherever you will go by the calling,
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Current Location: home
Current Mood: indescribable
Current Music: wherever you will go - the calling
 
 
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13 June 2009 @ 12:49 am


Spent much of today checking out stuff on mcgill. And I have to say I'm really scared. I have been putting off my uni stuff like crazy, at first I thought it was just procrastination. But now I realised is the cowardness inside of me.
Going to a total new country is quite challenging already. Coupled with a ancient university campus and prospective uni mates that goes drinking all the time. I am truly a wuss.

I always thought it'll be really cool to go on your own and live by yourself  without parent's interference. But now I am starting to feel a little homesick even though I have not really left. Today while having dinner with my gong gong, I felt that my meals are numbered in this 20 year old house,

The rich history of mcgill means one thing. Lots of things could have happened in this university. Maybe I have watched too many movies and I'm getting a little spooked out. But I bet there'll be many stories the seniors are gonna tell of the many aged buiding on campus. And if you know me well, I'm a sucker for ghost stories and once you got me hooked, I am just rooted to the ground, unable to move, stoning there thinking that if I didn't flinch the ghost may not know I'm there. But I think even without the stories, the old architecture is enough to send my imagination flying. Do you know they have underground tunnels that connect the buildings? ( not like those underground mrt links you have here, more like secret passage ways, narrow and dim) Some of the residences there were built in the 1930s, that's like before the war, and there are some that are hotel converted to hostels. Hotels tend to have a history too.

And the partying... I really hope its not too much. Worst still, they don't really drink cocktails and such, more like beer! ugh I really hate beer. And hopefully my roommate's not like some slut that brings guys back to the dorm.

Now, I'm thinking maybe staying with dad is not such a bad idea. U of Alberta seems more watered down than mcgill. Even if I had to stay in the hostel, I don't think it would be that much of a problem. And I'm starting to reconsider the major that I'm taking. Do I really want to venture into that, I don't think i'm cut out for med and the years is freakishly long, maybe I should just go u of A where I can take up general degree to see where my interest lie. But really?! When am I ever gonna know where my interest lie?!

With all these boggling my mind, I went church today. We talked about Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego being thrown in the fire by King Nebuchadnezzar as they did not want to bow to him like a god and how the angel of God protected them and brought them out, which made King Nebuchadnezzar a believer. I have to be like them to trust in God that he will protect me, even if it is not instantly or the way I anticipate it to, while I fight off trying to conform to the world, to be fearful of my fears.

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Current Location: home
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12 June 2009 @ 12:36 am
HA I think I'm getting the hang of blogging! Better start again, so when i go canada can blog blog blog!
Anyway, I shall keep things short and sweet.

Went to school today to play touch rugby with juniors, it was sort of a testimonial match. XW, eme, cass, audrey,wan joo came. Well but wj didn play! Silly girl was wearing top to toe white! And our seniors came too, yan yee, jo and jaz. Well, we were uber rusty like thousands of years never exercise compared to our skinny junior. ( OMG they are seriously skin and bones and tad bit of muscle, matt trained them way too hard!? Therefore naturally we died like nobody's business out there from sheer exhaustion. But well we survived somehow. There's a ningjia look-a-like in our junior's junior batch(current J1). Not only they look alike, they also behave alike, like nua nua ( if that's the correct term!) We played alongside the J4 and upper alumni people, seriously I can't keep track of which batch are they. And the rugby boys also had their testimonial match today. Although, I complained like crazy about my jaded-ness, it warms my heart to see so many alumni coming down to play today.


I sure can trust God to be my protector!
I was going up to my room just now, up a few steps on the stairs carrying a lot of barang barang. Then, my mom opened the door and in came Fluffy! I was like" Fluffy!!" And saw that he wanted food. So I walked down to give him some. I guess all that baggage blocked my view, making my assume that I was on the 1st step. So I took a wider step. My ankle bend quite a fair bit to the right and I came crashing down with all that junk, plonking noisily on the floor. Fluffy's big blue eyes shot wide opened and looked at the messy me. My leg was burning and painful, so I just waited for the pain to subside, which it eventually did. When I checked it, I realised there was any sprain or twist. PHEW!!!! Just that my leg was a little sore at some parts so walking up the flight of stair was a strenuous process. But I'm just super thankful nothing bad happened to it.
 
 
Current Location: home
Current Mood: thankful
Current Music: Thank you Jesus
 
 
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08 June 2009 @ 01:11 am

Time seem to be running real quick. It's gonna be monday again. Can't time just pause and let me live in the moment.
This week has been great. Did a lot of shopping with char and her friend till I'm broke. Dinner with Vane. Passover meal in church, with the cool ambience and funky food. Sentosa with instructors. Hopping around town with barn ppl. Playing poker with cool crew. Life seem to be at the best right now. But not entirely...
There are still some burned bridges to mend. Some experiences in Singapore left to accomplish. Some worrying and preparation to do before jetting off.
I'm in a limbo inside. I can feel so happy at one moment and the next, be entirely opposite. If only I could just be one minded, life would be so much easier,

Anyway, I have decided to make a timetable for the remaining time I have left. To fully make full use of it. I know, timetable sounds so school like, haha maybe I just miss school that's why. Where everyday you know you'll meet your friends, to know when and where to go. So many songs I wanna learn on the guitar. So many pet projects I have yet to complete. And meeting up with all my friends is priority, so what if i'm jobless and broke. And I want to keep fit, i think my fitness level now is zelch. So evening runs with freddie and cardio classes with mom would help!

Sidenote: I wrote a letter to God on friday. And this is what he wrote back.

I guess no matter who I am or what I am, he'll always love me.
 
 
Current Location: Singapore
Current Mood: calm
Current Music: All for love - Hillsong
 
 
dotsandashes
13 May 2009 @ 04:39 pm


It's been around a month since I got back and around a month since I've posted my last post. Haha, I'm not really the consistent blogger, more like the obsessive compulsive type...
Anyhoo, I wanna blog about my dreams.
I have been dreaming for the past 3 days straght and normally I don't remember them but these dreams were so etched in my mind when i woke up, its scary really.
The first dream was I had an outing with the 0725 ppl and I was suppose to buy movie tickets, and the rest went to buy the tidbits and stuff. This mall was not a mall found in anywhere in the world except in my brain. I was suppose to meet the rest at the movie theatre and to get there I had to take an uber long and uber high escalator. As I was going up, I started to hyperventilate and was clutching my chest as I thought I would die, The funniest thing was I was holding a bowl of apple crumble and through the chaos the apple crumble didn crumble! Anw, this guy saw me and tried to calm me down by asking me about the mundaniest things. He asked me what school I was from and I said St Pete's! Like where the heck is St pete's! When I finally reached the top, I was relieved but stil traumatised by the event.

The second dream was really scary.
In the dream, I was in the game Left 4 Dead. I was one out of 4 of the humans to complete the mission. Well, the weirdest thing was Mr Neo was in it and that to play the game I had to use a PSP. So he lend me his. Well, it wasn't that weird at that time cuz I was literally in the game, where zombies were swarming around me. And to make matters worse, my gun couldn't shoot. There were no bullets coming out of it. Zombies were inching closer and I could only punch them. And my stupid teammates just continued on without me!!! Ahhhh in the actual game, if you are left behind, you'll confirm die. Anyway, I somehow managed to survive. Then Mr Neo reappeared again and told me maybe the PSP was spoilt so he gave me another one. When I used it, the same problem happened again. And this time we were on an MRT train. There were normal humans and zombies in the train. And the zombies were biting into the humans and eating them! And I could not do anything as there were too many and Mr Neo was still helping me buy the bullets. He told me don't do anything, just sit here quietly so they wont attack yhou. Ahhh feels like shit, cuz I'm suppose to be like the soldier to kill the zombies. Once he managed to buy the bullets, I quickly kill the zombies and head out at the next station to find my team. Which means I am left alone again. Somebody sounded the alarm and a whole mob of zombies came and attack me. Then, I woke up....shivering... What a bad dream. You know it scarred me for the whole day. Cuz at night I was taking the train and then I saw this guy biting his nails and he looked kinda druggy. I suspected that he was going to turn into a zombie! And I dare not wash  my mom's toliet or even go to her room cuz its always so dark. I am trap in my own house, or more specific, my own room. This fear is so retarded I sometimes hate myself for it,
Actually there are a lot of logical explainations for the dreams, cuz everything in it is related to what i see and experience. The zombies cuz I played left 4 dead the other day. Mr Neo, because I've been seeing him so many times on the street.

The third dream was just last night. It is not really scary but pretty retarded.
I was at serangoon gardens, and I saw glenn and darren working at an ice cream shop. I was so jealous cuz I have been wanting to work in an ice cream shop for ages. So I asked them how did they get the job, and they said through NS links! Ughhhh, so unfair! (actually its quite funny cuz since when does ns guys sell ice cream!) Then, when I went to buy from them, I saw Allan Wu( ok that has really no link whatsoever). Suddenly the scene changed and Mr Neo appeared in my dreams again!!!!(WHY DO I: KEEP DREAMING OF MR NEO!!!!) And he was working in a geisha house and he was suppose to primp me up to dress like a geisha! HAHA this is just hilarious. Maybe his gay tendencies made me think of that! So he was like putting white cream all over my face and tying my hair up in a bun. And the head geisha even scolded him for not pulling it properly, which he obediently abided. K the geisha part really makes no sense.... But the ice cream one does.. because the night before I was at Frolick and so desperately wanted to work there, then I heard my mom say there's a vacancy at millenia walk, which got my hopes up. So high up that I had to dream about it. Gosh Ashley...

I really want a good night sleep and not dream of heart thumping things or scary things or stupid things. Maybe I'm sleeping too much....
Anyone knows a sleep doctor?

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Current Location: home
Current Mood: scared
Current Music: How do you sleep - Jesse McCartney feat ludacris
 
 
dotsandashes
07 April 2009 @ 11:22 pm
Took advantage of the nice weather and wore a dress to church today!
Ate at Red Lobster for lunch. Boy, it is yummy. The lobster was so fresh and juicy!!!

Here's some pics (Inez don't say I didn upload any photos of humans instead of food!)
The weather now is so much better, some days it can reach 10 degrees! So thats why I can still wear a dress and not freeze to death. But its still cold though.

 


 

  XOXO :D


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Current Location: edmonton, ab
Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: I will follow you into the dark - death cab for cutie
 
 
 
 

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